concerned about me when you said I have a lot to worry about, and I wanted to show that I care about you too. Itâs just in my personality to reciprocate.â
âAnd how many personalities do you have exactly?â He gives me a facetious smile. âFour, five?â
I give a fake gasp. Iâm actually proud of him. Gordon is not only cute but competitive as well!
Before I can answer, he tries to put an end to our peertutoring fun. âWhy donât you just finish the problems I gave you so I can get home to more important things ?â he says.
I knew it. I imagine flicking a bent staple off the end of my pencil right at Gordonâs forehead. Smack! Right in the middle. One moreâ¦smack!
âMore important things?â I stare at him in disbelief, but he just scribbles and scribbles, ignoring me as if Iâm too insignificant to have a conversation with. âHeyâ¦does God ever consult you for advice? Donât get mad at me, I was just wondering.â Oh, yes, he wants a battle, heâll get one.
Gordon looks up at me, and I totally think heâs going to suggest that I get paired up with a different tutor, someone who Iâd get along with better, when I see somethingâa little smile emerging on his lips. âYes, on occasion, God and I hang out.â
He can kid! He may be human yet.
âFor the record, you started it.â I smile, much to my own chagrin.
âFor the record, Motor Girl, you know nothing about me. So donât assume anything.â
Hmm, I canât say heâs wrong, even though heâs a dork for calling me âMotor Girlâ again. I donât know him. And he doesnât know me, so touché. âSame goes for you. I may not be the best at chemistry, but otherwise, I have nothing to worry about. I know I donât have to explain this to you, but I am not the illiterate imbecile you probably think I am.â
In fact, except for losing Seth, my life is just spiffy. Keeping safe from any more heartbreak is my main goal. That, not chemistry, is my biggest worry, Gordon. Althoughbalancing C 3 H 8 + O 2 = CO 2 + H 2 O is quickly climbing the ranks.
âWell, now that thatâs squared off, can we please finish?â he asks.
âFine.â
We say nothing else. I work on the equations, trying my best to remember what Gordon explained. I just donât know why weâre forced to study things weâre not meant for. I donât have any choice, though, or Iâll be handing Lolita over to my dad by the end of the school year.
âTimeâs up,â Gordon says, starting to pack up his things. I glance at my cell. Three twenty-five. We have five more minutes. I spin the notebook around for him to check my answers.
His eyes speed over them left to right. âYou may be a very well-adjusted individual, one who doesnât need to explain herself to me everâ¦â He leans over and proceeds to correct half of my conversions, putting a tiny 2 under the last chlorine symbol. âBut Iâm sorry to tell you that you still need a tutor.â
âRight.â I check out the grime clinging to the auditorium chairs.
âAnd for your information,â he says, zipping up his backpack, âIâm not anal. But if thatâs how you perceive me, who am I to argue?â
âGood. And for your information, I donât have multiple personalities.â Iâll give Gordon props for one thing: Kidding or notâthe guy knows how to push my buttons.
Thatâs a first.
I collect my things and pack them carefully for the wetride ahead. Maybe the rain has died down by now and I can take Lolita on a slow coast home. It would be so nice to let the memory of this first tutoring session drip behind me until my head is empty. I put on my jacket, tuck my helmet under my arm. Maybe itâs time to call a truce with Gordon, too. I hold out my hand. âLook, I really do appreciate your